Monday, March 24, 2008,2:59 pm
HOORAY ! i can log in again ,
hahaha .
well , before anything else , this weekend has been rather impactful .
it seems i spend every easter at a different church .
last year it was chc , the year before back at coa ,
this year i spent it at hogc .
i didnt go for the good friday service ,
went to shalini's house to slack instead ,
we were supposed to do work but .. you know .
hahaha .
anyway , saturday .
ling and dad followed me to church ,
dad wanted to so-called evaluate and check out this new church i was attending .
i was so scared he wouldnt like it .
and ask me to go back to coa ,
so i prayed .
i dont know what i was praying for specifically , but i just prayed . and prayed hard .
pastor shared about the different areas and aspects of peace .
many people have been wishing for world peace , waving their twists up in the air ,
but i never really thought into it ?
i agree that it was more of an idealistic hope rather than a promising reality .
in this 21st century , we have seeen more wars and conflicts then in the whole recorded history ,
how frightening is that ?! it seems so surreal .
we are wishing and praying so hard for world peace .
when we should be work up to it . i mean ,
we dont even have peace in our families , amongst our friends , in our schools , in our countries .
how can we ever hope for WORLD peace .
peace , starts from within ourselves . in our very own hearts .
and trust me , a peace , a void that only Jesus Christ can fill .
im so thankful to have grown up in a christian family ,
now that i think of it , i really am .
i may have taken it for granted sometimes , complaining that my faith was not enough .
but , i dont know what i would do without the guidance of my family and COA members as i was growing up .
i so thankful - seriously .
its only when we settle peace within ourselves can we share it with the people around us .
so that they may share it with the people around them , and THEN , maybe just THEN .
peace in the world would gradually be something we can look forward to .
thus , i trusted dad and his opinions about hogc .
and i do agreee that its more evangelistic .
but when the time is right , something deep in my gut tells me i will go back to COA .
anyway , what touched me even MORE was the testimonies shared .
about how God's prescence is so real .
fresh and very much alive .
when you've surrendered your life to Jesus Christ ,
becoming a living and breathing testimony of Christ ,
and training to be the salt and light .
you will see changes ,
changes in yourself and around you that just cant be described .
its just amazing (:
earlier this month we did a study on exodus .
about God's people coming out from Egypt into the wilderness .
i was actually shocked , disappointed even .
when i read about how the israelites could forsake God and forget his miracles ,
his jaw-dropping miracles like the parting of the red sea in just THREE DAYS .
and go back to idols .
it seems so impossible .
i thought to myself "to have seen the hand of God right in front of you , and you're not convinced for life ?!"
but then , we're actually not so different .
when we're in church.
worshipping and on fire for God .
having read his word and maybe felt God speaking to you directly .
BUT , the moment we step back into the marketplace .
we're on fire maybe till wednesday .
then everything goes back to before again .
and your fire has turned to a dim flame .
it seems kinda disappointing now too .
so i learnt something that day .
though it was weeks ago , its still etched in the pits of my thoughts .
we have to live the word everyday .
maintain and be on fire for God everyday .
not just in church , but also in the marketplace .
ESPECIALLY in the marketplace .
thats where the true test begins for us (:
ohkay , anyway .
hahaha . this easter i guess really didnt bring much of a .
easter egg celebration feel for me .
rather , it brought me back to the basis of my christian faith .
it tested my conviction and tested me for answers .
answers which i had forgotten long ago .
i was wrong , you DO neeed a local community ,
you DO need to go to church regularly .
else , you can never go past stagnant .
thanks Lord for opening this to me this weekend .
having said all these ,
im SO behind on my work and tutorials ,
that maths teacher whose name i dont know is going to kill me so bad :x
so , i should go do now .
hahaha .
i blogged :DD woopeeee !
| What Ng Yiwen Means |
 You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.
You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.
You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.
You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.
You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!
You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.
You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.
At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. |
i think its just the letters of the name but , amusing . hahaa .
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